Friday, November 1, 2013

Houses of the Holy

I grew up in the Roman Catholic Church. My family was faithful and dedicated to the faith, following the liturgical calendar as a guide to the rhythm of our lives. I made my first communion when I was 7 and was confirmed at 11, beginning my spiritual journey and life as a faithful Catholic. I trusted the Church and believed in it as a center for the delicate balance of my life. I've never been a typical Evangelical critic of the Catholic Church and still hold it as special and in high regard. Although, I left the Catholic Church during my college years, I still hold the many memories close to my heart and consider them essential aspects of my spiritual construct.

One of the clearest memories that I have lies in the simplicity of entering any Roman Catholic Church. Unlike many Evangelical and Protestant churches that are reminiscent of entering a concert hall just before the show starts, the Catholic worshiper is greeted with an overwhelming wave of silence. In an almost tangible manifestation, one feels the sense that they are being transformed from the brokenness of natural creation and ushered into the supernatural holiness of God's Kingdom. There is such a reverence for God and respect for His house, that you cannot help but feel the presence of His Spirit emanating from every corner of the richly and ornately decorated structures. The light gleaming from detailed stained glass, paints a visual interpretation of the Gospels that draws you into an almost real-time encounter with the ancient. You are captured and immersed in the holy.

No coffee or food enters the Catholic sanctuary. No idle talk or theological discussion continues from the outer walls. From a very early age, children are not ushered into Sunday School or nurseries, but taught that they are not only welcome, but a necessary part of the Church body. And because of this inclusion, children observe the same silence as their parents. Not from obedient fear, but more from a sense of awe. I still can remember the powerfully ominous aura of silence as we made our way to our regular spot in the church. We were in God's house, and although I fully understood and believed in the complete omnipresence of God, there was something special when we entered our family place of worship.

As I've made my journey from Catholicism through the detailed landscape of the Evangelical and Protestant Church, I've grown to realize that the differences that tend to divide us are not as great as we make them out to be. Most of us seek the same things from life and believe in the same essentials of the same God that all of us worship. Most of our discussions and even arguments can usually rest in the common faith in Christ and hope for the Kingdom He came to fulfill. Our divisions usually stem from the imperfections of man and not the complete perfection of God. Unity transforms. Division holds us captive and leaves us as we have always been.

But the one difference from my Catholic brothers and sisters that stands obvious to me each and every time I enter a Protestant Church lies in just that: entering the church. For I am reminded of something that seems to be missing. I'm reminded of something that captured my young heart as a child and still calls to me as a man. I'm reminded of how easy it is for the follower of Christ to place the emphasis on ourselves and allow it to deviate from God. I'm reminded that our world is loud but our spirits demand quiet. And even amidst the roar of chaos in our culture today, God's volume still rises above. But I am also reminded that our own voices can drown out the most thundering call of God.

Our church buildings are not magical. They hold no powerful energy that rushes through us as we enter the walls that contain our physical worship. I have felt God's presence more tangibly walking on a beach or standing on top of a mountain. But what stands unique is the physical attribution that we designate to our church buildings within our world. For as we spend the millions of dollars and carefully craft each doorway corridor, we make a claim that we make to no other structure: This is God's House. In a world of building man-made Kingdoms, the church is still the one building that we set aside for Him and only Him. Perhaps we would be more aware of that if we left the coffee in the entry way next to our egos. Perhaps we would hear God more clearly as He welcomes us into His house, if we turned our proverbial volumes down and allowed ourselves to be awed by His hospitality. Perhaps we would regain some of that sense of reverence that the Catholic Church still enjoys and find that we are not only in church to experience a good time, but to capture a taste of the holy as well.

Monday, October 21, 2013

Home

A relational visit drew me home,
  and the breath of nostalgia caught me off guard.
Transported in time, I wandered about.
  No agenda. No plan. No destination.
The smell of history wafted inward,
  through open car windows and soul that welcomed.
Oyster shell driveways cracked with rubber feet,
  compelled to call me back further than before.
Many years have come before this moment.
  Many feet have walked each memory with me,
each with independent recollection. 
At each turn another memory calls
  from a generation that lived before me.
Smells of salt, sand and oleander life
  pulled me from where I was and held me fast.
Time rushes forward in life, but backward
  in the inner dwelling places that we save.
They lay hidden until discovered new,
  like the cool fresh air that carried me this day.
This is home, the same yesterday as is now.
  I'm young again, if only for today.
God opened for me a portal of time
  and gave me warm rest for just a little while.
Like the woman just off 45th street,
  I found rest among my nostalgia and palms.
Home in the arms of God. Home as it was.
  Home as it is. And that drives me further home.       
 

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Obscured Doors of the Soul

It seems that the door of the soul usually remains closed in our culture. It stands blocked by overwhelming distractions, too heavy to move on our own, cut off from the world around us.

Occasionally, we may temporarily move the barriers, crack the door open and glance at the landscape that lies outside of the soul. We feel as if we open ourselves to others, but in reality we only play dress-up or wear a mask of some sort.     

Many of is ignore the barricades completely, going about life as usual. Sometimes we are not even aware that the soul remains hindered. In fact, some of us even add more barriers of our own, including spiritual locks and deadbolts.   


It is only through the light of Christ, as He invades our soul, unhindered and free to move by His Spirit that the door not only opens, but is blown from it's hinges, leaving an unobscured passage for the light to invade.

That light reveals our soul for what it truly is. It is then that we not only become naked to ourselves, but lay completely vulnerable to others as well.

Only then can we be completely authentic, free to love and be loved.

Free to forgive and be forgiven.

Free to be with one another. 

Free to be as Christ.      

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

A Prayer

Lord, make clear that which remains cloudy.
  Make straight things what seem skewed;
  Bring focus to that which is distorted;
  Create assurance where all seems uncertain;
  Direct that which is unmapped;
  Make clarity in realms of confusion;
  Make targeted things that appear aimless;
  Decide what is postponed;
  Fill what is empty;
  Complete what has been left undone;
  See what is hidden;
  Speak where there is silence;
  Hear where deafness prevails;
  Be where you are not.

Open the doors of my heart and soul, Lord
  to see You as You are.
Let these prayers rise to You and be Your will,
  as my will is for You to be.

Amen

 
 

Monday, September 16, 2013

Essential Prayer


When we shed all that does not matter in life, we discover that prayer is much more simple than we realize.

When we fully enter into prayer, without hindrance, distraction or selfish agendas, we find Christ at the center of all we are.

There is only Christ. Nothing else adds to our existence and nothing subtracts from it.

All is Christ and Christ is within all.

All that exists, exists through Christ.

All is created through Christ. Every thought. Every breath. Each step that follows the next is through Christ.

Christ is all.

When we reach this point of realization, our prayers become quite simple, natural and organically oriented toward God alone.

For when prayers that otherwise might have been offered with selfish intention find their origin in Christ, the center, we find that they come not from us, but Christ.

Our prayers become His intentions and not ours.

Our will is His will.

Our thoughts are His thoughts.

Our mind is His mind.

Christ s the center of our existence.

Nothing else matters.

Christ in us.

We in Christ.